Anata

is the only confession that I need

Enemies of mine
You shall be condemned
Imprisoned spirit of hate
Released when you're dead
Dare me now
I'll feel relief when you're dead
Satisfaction, retribution
I shall smile when you're dead

How many saw the pain I'd feel
No one saw
What could not be for real
I laugh in the face of humanity
Every oppression shall be scorned

Without you my mind would be free
Or I wish it would be
For every day in my life
Another dream to come true
And so many things to fulfill
And so much life and pain
And remorse to kill

Pain can be so sweet
Pain can be the sincerest thing
But in my heart the hatred grows
And crushes beauty viciously
As death can be so beautiful
But also insignificant
As in the most precious things
I writhe in disgust

(A revered prism I am...)

My eyes gather colors
And form it into total darkness
Inverted, twisted – like me
As bright as the sun may shine
As black shines my mind

Enemies of mine
You shall be condemned
Imprisoned spirit of hate
Released when you're dead
Dare me now
I'll feel relief when you're dead
Satisfaction, retribution
Maybe smile when you're dead

2. Let The Heavens Hate

Deep inside a black heart
A mourning shadow grows
Wolves in their chains growl
Moaning at the azure skies
Dreaming of a dark past
When the strong would reign in savagery
Let us burn our Christian ties
Let us arise again
Let the heavens hate!

Let us chant in blasphemy
Let us sing our heathen hymns
Join me in unholy dance
Let the heavens hate

Under the calm rages a mighty storm
My oceans are waiting to break free
God take thy face away from me
My oceans are
Thrown against the walls I did not choose
And the tide is the pulse
Of my bleeding heart
Soon to drown the land
Of the lord of light
...And the depth of the sea remains

Skies shall break, angels shall fall
Tumbling into swirling dust
Glaring teeth, fastidious tongue
Wolves unleashed hail the new time to come
My heart overflows
Pulsating with the pulse of the moon
And my oceans will crush their walls
Now waiting to break free
God take thy face away from me

Deep inside a black heart
A mourning shadow grows
Wolves in their chains growl
Moaning at the azure skies
Dreaming of a dark past
When the strong would reign in savagery
Let us burn our Christian ties
Let us arise again
Let the heavens hate!

Let us gather our thoughts
Let us use our strength in mind
Join me in the ritual
Let the heavens hate

3. Under Azure Skies

Blood boils under azure skies
A man astray, obsessed in his search
Exploring vast lands
Deserts of sand and stone
Now heading for the open sea
Where his dreams are at
And his mind is set free

The scornful sun burns, tears his skin
The salt breeze tears his open eyes
And the whirling sand will dry his throat
But the journey must go on
He found his call, he is now a slave
On the mission to find his soul
And eternity seems ever so deep
And with every wish
The distance seems to grow

And then at least
Somewhere by the horizon line
The ocean lies mighty, calm and wide
And just when all his strength was gone
And all his hope was lost
His will was strong
And all that remained but his torn limbs
Covered by dust

Reaching for the distant shore
He raises to his feet but falls
When his feet are sore
A painful effort like a grain of sand
Malicious god gives him hand
A hand that beats him to the ground
And the cry for help echoes
Without a sound
Out of reach are all the visions
About his mind set free
The sun laughs as he kneels
Before his destiny

When ages of burning energy
Flows through a peerless body
And you experience strength
Far beyond what you would never know
Is when you realize that what counts
In the end is the journey itself
So with a smile let your struggle in pain
Be crowned by death

An eternity in the moment
Is when silence screams with emptiness
And when I felt relief
Was when the tide washed away
The blood of my broken limbs

4. Vast Lands/Infernal Gates

Sentenced to a life after death in pains
I will not be
As the book of lies suggests
Its basis are unworthy and twisted
By the holy men

Death is older
So are the dimensions
Onto which we shall travel
True servants will be rewarded
As they follow their master's will
Disregarded of to whom
They devote their lives

I shall not listen to the holy lord
If he calls my name
Trying to pull me towards his kingdom
I will choose to die by my own hand

The promise failed
The one of forgiving the unfaithful
Let us stay inside our walls
Sheltered from the holy lies
True servants will be rewarded
As they follow their master's will

This is what we learned
This is what I preach

Eager to view the other side
When the lord calls my name

Then what is my destiny
What will my reward be
Vast lands... I will be a shadow king
Or infernal gates
With its hidden pleasures to reveal

But what is said
Should never be regarded
As that I follow Him personified
He is merely an expression
For the force that I indulge

The strongest power above all
My truest emotion
My only friend and all I have
To fill my emptiness
To make me come true

Reward in advance
Lies in self-fulfillment
I levitate by serving only myself
To rise above all
I tread the souls of the weak

Then what is to be awaited
Of this we do not know
The only certainty
True servants will be rewarded
As they follow their master's will
And I follow my own
And with reward in advance I levitate
We struggle towards the end
Serving the one to be served
Achieving what has to be achieved

With delight we await that very day

5. Slain Upon His Altar

I am lost in the land
Of withering shadows
Seeking no truth
Finding depth in various things
Weak in their spirit
And shallow are their hearts
Fading away like flowers
Under the sun

And his frailty had to be shared
My true belief was to be declared
The holy man opened his heart
And he let me receive the blessing
Of his lord

Drink the blood, drink the blood
The wine is turned into the blood of Christ
No, I choose to spit on his face
Forever walk the enlightened ways
Died on the cross
Where's your kingdom now?

All your knowledge is worthless
All your efforts are in vain
Sanguinary
Blood-thirst in my nature
Puppets of Christ in consanguinity
But I cut the strings long ago

What does he think of now
When he lies slain upon his altar
Dripping with blood
With the cross stabbed through his chest
Just like he was stabbed in the back
By his blind faith
Chalice fall, let the bell toll!
Transform wine into blood of God

Naked-unsheltered!
The spirit outside the Holy Grail
Soul tread
Now for everyone to see
Now facing stone
And so is the man on the altar!

6. Those Who Lick The Wounds Of Christ

Woe to the holy men
Who taste the sacred wine
You lick the wounds of Christ
The one of blessed memory

Through this you make him breathe
Though the candlelight is flickering
Relieving wind come sweep away
Devotion to his memory

One is the remedy
To let our souls fly free
One is the solution
To put all this to a final end
To end this misery
Let me spit into your face
And at the symbol of your feeble race
This is the symbol of your feeble race
This is just what he would preach
His kingdom is now out of reach
Pale utopia's tragedy

I had a dream
That resembled of a dark past
An honorable ancestry
Of a time when weakness
Was no virtue more than prosperity
Awakening in cold sweat
Screaming with agony
Something must be done to end this pain
And one is the remedy
You are the clowns
You simple-minded misguided ones
In the name of God
In the name of insanity
Your ways are so pathetic
Your minds are so naive
You are the worm inside my veins
You make me sick with apathy

7. Dethrone The Hypocrites

Eternal winter, societies drown
To freeze the rapture bring heavens down
Eternal winter, shadows from afar
A few chosen wander

The unworthy god's creation must be
Forever swept away
A new world order must be
Created by man
Men of will, men of depth
And strength in their hearts
Shall ascend above all

A dawning world fell into decay
Due to mental destruction
Caused by poisonous thoughts
Forced upon us
Let us build upon the past
And indulge wisdom far beyond God
Let forever our roads diverge
We shall leave the era of historical fraud

We learned from the past
What's good in a sense may be
Devastating wrong
Self-denial tells the weak from the strong

Dethrone the hypocrites
And crown our spirit in blood and gold
Never again
Shall the twisted word be told
And for those who try to escape
From the scene
And claim their faith in the Nazarene
Hunted you shall be like the sun
When winter comes
And the hunt has begun

We learned from the past
What's good in a sense may be
Devastating wrong
Self-denial tells the weak from the strong
Men of will, men of depth
And strength in their hearts
Shall ascend above all

The blessing may not come from the sky
Snow may not fall in an everlasting night
Dream, dream of what ways there will be
Still we hail the winter as
A symbol for the time
When Jehovah's kingdom dies

And if some souls of strength
Would survive though repeatedly
Ripped and torn
We shall tread upon these unfortunate
Let us march into a brand new dawn

8. Aim Not At The Kingdom High

Bounds of the kingdom divine
From the horizons of God
The angel beholds our world in flames
And the crowds who rejoice
In both pleasure and pain
Her heart is filled with tears
Heavy as wings of the raven dark
For her father the lord forbade her
To taste the apple
That fell to the ground

For all the pleasures of heaven are shallow
Though eternal
I would trade this for a day
Among the mortals

For just a day
I would sacrifice all that was given to me
My whitest wings, my faith
And my virginity, so take my soul
Blacken my wings and let the gates
Of light be forever closed

Mortals – Open your arms
And greet me with what never was
Given to me
Initiate me into all that was
Hidden from me
My hunger is insatiable, my wish for fire
Is deeper than the skies

And like the fallen angels we will ruin
All that is trying to hold us back
Virgin maidens are to be engaged
In the obligations to those of the damned

And the angel prayed
To ascend in our world
As she was given to the flames
For we are not the children of God
And we aim not at the kingdom high

All that is divine is to be dead
And all that ever was in decline
For shallow are the pleasures of God
And I aim not at the kingdom high

"So give me pain
Teach me to know myself again
For self-denial is the norm
On which all my thoughts
And identity was formed
So show me pain
Fulfill all my dreams
That have been veiled in vain
For my blood and my veins are of sin
And my soul has been sold so show me pain"