Textures

t's better contained

We are so free
And what a superb absence is our soul
Desire is a liar
Blueprint of mankind's weakness

Absolute absolution
Criticize criticism

We are weighed down every moment
By the merciless sensation of time
This is an epidemy
Without remedy
It's better contained

Evolve, so free
And what a superb absence is our soul
Resolve this mirroring, wondering
We believe in the signs

Into the depths of the unknown
Only there you will find something new

What are you running from?
Obsession? What are you running from?

There are moments of existence
When time and space are more profound
And the awareness of existence
Is immensely heightened

This is the war of creation
And time becomes a murderer
Murderer!
Bring me consolation
Then we'll talk
Inconsistent copy
Abductor of every art form
Eyes can't see what's beyond
And the wind is silent

So from the mould
Scarlet and gold
A bulb will rise
A newborn
Bring him consolation
Then he will bless us
Give him a Judas kiss and
Face the consequence
Eyes can't see what's beyond

So long, my serenity
Lost in a conversation
Build these towers upside down
Lost in this constellation
And the wind is silent


2. The Sun's Architect

I’ve met my past
And my shadow just followed me home
He screamed at the sun
The piercing light would undo him

True wanderer
Only thrive when you’re inside
Behold the transformation

I’ve struck a nerve here
I’m caught adrift on a lonely breeze
Unable to swim ashore
Boundless thoughts will carry you

Daylight glints through every seem
And paints upon my skin
Sunburn – burn me

Between the lifeless and senseless
Between these gray mountain peaks
Beneath the frozen ground
I’m lost

Contract so seclusion
From sigh to storm
I’m born again
Walking backwards
Towards my sins
Black hole brother
Catch me

Whisper away
These rivers of doubt
I’m kept awake by sound
Of mumbling mouths
Speaking of the true you

And landscapes, scarred and ravaged
Shiver, scare away the crows

Burn away the sun
Burn away the center
Burn away the sun

The dusk is near
My eyes paint black lines
Upon the horizon
A grim sight

While needles of light
Pierce the face that lies face down

I try to stand up
And face my shadow
But he’s hidden
By the light

I try to stand up
And face myself
But I’m hidden
In the shadow


3. Awake

Man down
This hardened shell is broken
My fate is bound to what I’ve done
Regrets – I shuffle down the hallway
Precious time – It’s all gone overboard
Here is your calm down pill
I’ll never be the same – It’ll never be the same
With eyes wide open – My body’s floating down the river
This live – What have I confined you for? It’s all inside – It’s all in silence
When the raven gets its way
A Million thoughts are swept away
And then you leave it all
You leave it all behind

And maybe next time we’ll meet again
And maybe I’ll be less of a bitter man
When I feel more
I refuse to pay the ferryman – I’m so attached to my temple
He has to burn it down to get me
Ebony demon, shriek all you want – I’m not tagging along
The shade, the burning blackness – It is my protector
Fear before the fall – I can’t grasp it all
But at least I’m trying
A light, a smoldering cinder
Getting colder, ashen
And letting all this go
I’m not letting go
I’m not really done here
I won’t let go
Life’s to short to be wrong
And maybe next time we’ll meet again
And maybe I’ll be less of a bitter man
And if I could do it all over again
I’d be the same man all over again
When I feel more


4. Laments Of An Icarus

Now it’s always been a riddle
Misanthrope, you always pursued a valid reason
You know, to be wrong with a reason – You are what you are
But your ever present subliminal self bends the black – You sleep so tight
but dreamless – Facing forward – Dawn’s edge, the supplement to destiny’s ender
You smother all the words you have never said, with a mouth filled with empathy
Words can be an enemy – you can never say you’re sorry ‘cause you’re a pretender
Unpretend – Fall from grace – unconcealed – Just a phase – Summer’s bruise – Turn a wrench
Bottled thoughts – Blind eye stare – Look out of the window
You stare in the face of a widow – Drink up, like a lover – You recreate all that’s over
The turn of the tide – You’re used up – Just take it like a man, All you must do is confess
The truth is a knife – You are but one – One Straight answer

What is it? Sculpture of an obsession – A sound so profound it sings you back to hell – The system’s architecture
frames the antidote’s gift – Winter – summer cycle moves erratic, follow me Aphrodite
Faithless – The one broken – The one who can bend a spoon with his will – Bow down – Here’s my antidote
Priceless honest reaction (come on, come on) Take it, take it, more
Just another day in the rain, and a sure shot inside the game – Walk the dead man directly to his grave
Without mourning, without nothing – Be the same
Divide by numbers, all uncovered
Narrowed down from three to none my brother
And the nearest beacon cries “I’m sober”
But the truth remain unspoken
Cynic without anger
And a lover without passion
And a fighter with a complex
Worship your own cancer
And a lesson without meaning
It a lesson for the feeble
Branded by all-in-one frights
Antagonist, become my downfall
I’m just a man and I can’t grasp it all


5. One Eye For A Thousand

Eyes – a thousand eyes waiting below the waves – Because above the rain burns
My past becomes a lie
Goodbye sense of awareness – I drink adrenaline like mother’s milk, it soothes me
Remove all that I trust, all I’m ashamed for, state of remission, I feed of the vulture
I’m left breathless – The Battle is lost
One step takes a thousand miles – One black circle where I expected sun
One blind spot – One eye for a thousand eyes
Where I begun: underwater I’m reborn
I got stuck in the nether on a lonely cloud, while the heat burns my feathers
We’re all homeward bound – With a roar I dive down and I greet the seas
With words from an opiate verse

I am waiting for
One hand to raise a thousand fists
One moment caught in a thousand times
One blind spot
One eye for a thousand eyes
One place to long for
And I surrender to my pride

Goodbye

These eyes have seen the abyss
This mouth has told a thousand lies
My hands are washed in guilt and
I face my own reflection’s flight
What are you waiting for
You are left with
nothing


6. State Of Disobedience

Meet your shadow-self
Your dynamic demon side
Pleased to meet you
Are you the rebel or the fool?

Inspiration or regression?
These dark waters are treacherous!
'Cause you never run, never will
Never dream fast enough
To beat the runner

Jester's chronic laughter
Static discharge failure
Violence
Failsafe system running erratic
Cleanse me,I'm filthy
Heartbeats sing a song of change and
With sleep come the spoils
The nearing dawn yawns
With glistering teeth
My body shakes like the rattlesnakes tail

Hear the bones
They rattle and shatter the silence
with words of comfort
Hear the spurs
The Breathing of the nameless horse
Spewing breath like fire
A momentary stirring of this poisoned air

Like machines
We march in line
And fight our shadow
In the dark

We are scattered and bewildered
Lights flicker in the eyes of the beast
We're all teeth, all primal, all hungry
We've never been so awake

The moon is turning red you see
We're impatient
I'd kill for you

Uncontrolled visions
Of seconds ticking away
It's not today
Like a lover you wait
I'm so tired, so damn tired
Dark is the moon
Clouding judgment

Hear the bones
They rattle and shatter the silence
with words of comfort
Hear the spurs
The Breathing of the nameless horse
Spewing breath like fire
A momentary stirring of this poisoned air

Take the best of what's to come
And cast it away
To never look back
Cloven hoofs echo in the dark
I'm bound to this dream

I'm so afraid
To break down and dissipate
I'm awake.


7. Storm Warning

In pain there's a lesson - In blood there's a slithering form traveling
Through the veins, Through the body, amending - Burnt skin and broken bones
Don't deny it: we're all snakes at first, and then we change again
We are the strangers of today - Reach out, forever in the dark
In pain there's a moment in blood there's a final story written
So the better you make me I'm less man and more machine
Engaged in guessing, I'm lost for words - I'm never gone
Reach out for the serpent - Washing the dirt of ages away
Reach out for the serpent
Ask yourself: is this worth a reversed evolution?
We're acting like a tidal wave, crushing all that oppose us - Higher
Face the final legendary terminal new world disorder
Pain has hypnotizing voice and it calls your name - Higher
So you want steady, you're gonna get steady
So you want unsteady, you're gonna get unsteady
Look away - Eyes turn black - it's raining now
It's angry now, clawing its way out
And then i shove the sun onto the light - The silence comes
My freedom comes from inside - Tension relieved
And i save myself from you - Rescue me now
And you'll find your way back home, to find what you look for
Nothing, I said nothing - I guess I've always been stuck on the wrong side
Snakehead, you can't see me - Wherever i go, you go along
Break it, I said break it - Destruction will bring something new to the spectrum
Poison, suck the poison - wherever you go, I go along


8. Messengers

Here i wander aimlessly, divided like a restless sea
I remember messengers sifting through the boiling sand
Looking for a shaken hand - wading through the mire
But never find what they desire - Hear my voice calling
A butterfly caught - invisible wall - Keep away from light
I'm speechless - I'm fearless
I keep myself from running low on air
I'm a passenger - I'm just passing by - walk with me
I'm a passenger - I'm not supposed to be here
Roads in one direction all lead to where I'll be
Here i wonder endlessly, a story told uneasily
I remember messengers - Smell the scent of every season
How dark they might be - This ol' monster has its reasons
I am finally free - Stay with me now
See what you have done, creator - There's no great escape
Still hunger - I'm forsaken
I turn to the messengers


9. To Erase A Lifetime

Here's my only dream - While I breathe dopamine
My creature's cunning
It walks the road between sense and amphetamine
Clearly and ominous presence - Seraphs belong only to the ones who wait
I can feel it combine me - Merging all of my instincs with the withering beast
We dance around in a ring and suppose, but the secret sits in the middle and knows
Skies are ashen, dim summer stench - uncontrollable aesthetics relapse
This twilight as dawn
Faster, suppressor, a silent storm approaching
Behold a black-chalked figurine - it speaks to me in tongues
I resist my dislocation
Automatic integration of forgotten flaws and imperfections
Amplification of this endless
These words form a knife of cold
And pierce the heart of the unloving echoes of departure
My will bends as a twig in the wind
Decipher unwritten laws of coded existence - I'm naked in the cold
Strangely amused by conformity - Caught with a strange desire
I'm both promise and lie
Build to receive - Conductor of hours - A clockwork
A grim device built to undo - Erase a lifetime - Creator of ends
Now - death sets a thing significant, the eye had hurried by
Years become a second when thoughts collide with memories
The stitches stopped themselves
And then it was put among the dust
The center of self - Equation of life
The less you resist - The less you're erased
I fear the ghosts of all that would be - There is no closure
I heed the call of millions of others who fight the giant
One second alone has brought me thunder